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2017, see you soon!

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New year is here.  I must say 2016 was very low key.  I definitely went through a lot of tiny changes but mainly it was related to mental wellbeing.  I am particularly happy with my Project Happiness 365. Even though I don’t have milestone to show off, I am very satisfied with the year. 

Although I am not that much of a new year resolution person, I am quite excited about 2017. I have some plans. Some major changes are gonna happen in my life.  My thesis is gonna be submitted. I have a new motivation for PhD.  I hope things will work out fine.  I have new reading goals as well. I have started reading everyday.  I want to make 2017 a reading year. Currently,  I am still reading The book thief by Markus Zusak and few text books related to my thesis mostly on animism,  Indigenous identity and music.  But I am quite determined about this and I feel happy. 

I have also started doing some yoga. 2017 will also be a year where I will focus on my health.  

I read a post on reddit where this redditor talked about his years long journey exploring music from different era. He posted that there is a music archive on Wikipedia featuring music from different time period.  I think that should also be on my list. It seems like a very interesting idea. 

And the top of my bucketlist is the Radiohead’s concert in Oslo in June. It is my all time favourite band and especially after revisiting their music on my favourite series: Black Mirror and Westworld,  I have fallen in love with Radiohead all over again.  So, we are planning to go to their concert. I am so looking forward to it.

I think 2017 is gonna be exciting. What do you think? What are your plans for 2017?

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No surprises 

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I fell in love with Radiohead again. My first semester in Tromsø was Radiohead day in and day out. But over the two years, I grew out of it.

Thanks to beautiful cover of Radiohead’s songs by Ramin Djawadi, I fell in love with Radiohead again.  This whole day  I have been listening to ‘Exit music for a film’. It’s so beautiful. 


Today. We escape.  We escape.


Disconnected 

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Do you ever feel like you have unplugged?  Do you ever feel disconnected from everyone and everything? 

Past few days have been like that for me. I feel very disconnected from everyone and everything. It feels very strange as if I have nothing to bind me to this world.  Worst of all, today I feel nothing.  

I think I need some light. Need to go to polar night cafe and get some artificial light I guess! 

How do you feel tonight? 

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It’s been a very very long day. I slept 3 hours and had to get up to go meet my supervisor or former supervisor now for the last time. I am getting a new supervisor and I had an impromptu meeting with him as well. I feel so good today. When my new supervisor asked me to brief him about my thesis,  I started explaining things so good. I got my confidence back, I was very articulate and I surprised myself by the things I managed to explain.  I also realised that I have become quite structured. 

I came back and our magic companion is here. So, we have been playing for many hours. Look at our battlefield! Doesn’t that look insane? 

Project Happiness 365: Day 365

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It’s The Day today. I complete my 365 days project happiness.  I managed. I wasn’t sure in the beginning but with each passing day and post, I felt more determined. I did it. I failed to post somedays or failed to post a happy post a couple of times but still I posted a post that I felt was honest and real. I couldn’t believe that a lazy procrastinating Queen like me can be determined and post every single day! I feel really good. I also feel very privileged to have met amazing human beings like you guys, my readers, my fellow bloggers, who keep visiting my blog and showing me so much love and affection. My gratitude to you all! 

Today in this final post of Project Happiness 365, I want to share with you my reflections. 

  • Let it go. 

It’s not just Elsa singing on the top of her lungs but LITERALLY! Let it go. All the guilt, pain, heartache, regret, sadness and anxiety, it’s not worth it.  Just let it go. You don’t know how to do it.  Well just think about yourself as the most beautiful creation of nature.  Your mind, your being, your spirit, they are all precious, you know so, all these negative aspects of your life it’s just draining your energy and nothing else. The sooner you realise that all the anxiety, self loathing, guilt and, all other negative things that your torturing yourself with, is not worth your time and energy, the better it is. 

  • Love yourself.  

You might think it’s a stale, mainstream, mediocre formula but it is not. It took me so many wrong decisions and five psychedelic trips to understand that actually there is nothing beyond loving yourself.  Well be shocked and offended with my revelation as much as you like,  it doesn’t matter because the secret to happiness is loving yourself. In the end, it’s all You, always been you and always will be you. I don’t mean this in a self-loathing or obnoxious way but more in terms of self love, care and satisfaction. 
So, take care of yourself and love yourself as much as you can.  By doing so, you are doing this world a favour.  Because it’s not egoistic or narcissistic to love yourself. It only becomes problematic when you start thinking that you are above everyone else because you are not. No matter how good looking you are or no matter how much money you have or how powerful you are,  everything is temporary and the only certain thing is Death. And when you die, non of the things you have acquired in this life matters other than experiences and love.

  • Happiness is inside you. 

This is probably the most cliché thing I am gonna include in my list but I don’t care because this is an important lesson.  If you want to be happy, Be. Noone is stopping you. If you think other person has the power to make you unhappy then you are wrong because let me break your bubble,  it’s you who makes yourself unhappy. 

  • Nothing lasts forever…but nothing is lost. 

It is more than just a mash up title of two songs by my favourite band Sphongle. It’s something that has helped me overcome a lot of my insecurities. The most important lesson I learnt in these 365 days is that nothing lasts forever because the world is changing each passing moment.  Things change, events change, people change and you change as well. You just need to understand and accept that change is inevitable.  But let me tell you that nothing is lost. It is always gonna be there in you. Always as long as you want it to. 😊 

So, what’s next? 
Struggling writer asked me this question : ‘What after 365 days?’ Well, I guess being happy and grateful is an evergoing process. My purpose is to remember these lessons I have learnt and keep on living in the here and now. 
I will keep posting my things that I feel like sharing and are important to me. I would really much like to focus on photography and drawing.  So, this will be a platform to share my works. 

I never saw life with a rose colored glasses before. But now I feel much more positive and determined. It actually is all about how you want to see your life. So, finding a reason for happiness and gratitude each day  isn’t that difficult.  Happiness is everywhere, it’s inside you just had to open your eyes and see. As this song says…happiness is easy! 🙂

Project Happiness 365: Day 363

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Some friendships are so beautiful and easily preserved. You don’t need to please each other. You don’t get offended if you don’t call each other all the time. You respect each other and cherish the bond you have. That’s the kind of friendship I have with my bestfriend.  I hadn’t talked to her for a long time but last night when we skyped we just realised how precious our relationship is. 

I don’t have many close friends, I can count them in one hand. I have had very bad experiences with friendships all my life. But she is different. She is nice, kind, trustworthy and wise. She understands me like noone else. 

I dedicate this post to her even though she will not actually read my blog, she doesn’t know about it. I feel very grateful and privileged to have known her in my life. 
And here’s a picture of famous Kal Bhairav in Basantapur Durbar Square, Kathmandu, she took for me because I miss visiting those places with her. It is our favourite hangout. Oh! How I miss her.