There’s something very weird going on with my mind. I am trying to calm down and relax but things get so out of hand at night.
To describe in details how I actually feel, I feel this guilt over feeling sad or angry and especially making him feel bad. And then the loop of negativity starts. I should calm down and relax but it seems nearly impossible.
Well, I am trying not to give a shit. Go zen mode. Hopefully it will work.